Dear Future Boyfriend,
I'm at a confusing point in my life.I've been hurt before, and I've built up walls to protect myself.I know enough of the trick that I won't fall for just any boy. I've accepted you into my heart for good reason. Don't Break it !
Please understand me before you choose me.
I'm sensitive and I feel deeply. My anxiety makes uncomfortable in situations I don't experience often. It's hard enough on me, and asking you to carry that burden is something I don't want to do, but if you can handle it, please do. I promise I'm trying to handle it as best I can but sometimes I just need that shoulder to lead on. Anxiety and panic attacks don't last forever, and it'll only be easier if you don't make a fuss. Be Patient, don't yell, don't blame myself, me or anyone else. Know that my family is the world to me. I may fight with my dad or complain about him,but my dad is my best friend and my superhero too. My three sister should be your sister too, have a chitchat with them, they might be shy to talk with you, but try anyways. They doesn't like me either, but I'll never give up. Understand that I have a temper, but if I get upset with you, It's because I care. Sometimes I will do things that bother you, and you 'll do thing that bother me. PLEASE COMMUNICATE!!
Please be my best friend.
I like to call everyone my best friend. I can open up to people easily, and then entirely shut them out. I need to be comfortable with you. Let me be silly. Laugh at my jokes. Take my sass(It mean I like you) Be silly with me,make jokes back at me , be even sassier. Having a good personality will only make me fall for you more. Let me tell you anything without judgement. Confide in my and don't fear that I'll reject your ideas.This doesn't have to be a formal courting . Be my friend first, it's the most important part.
Please help me when I fall.
There will be days that I don't want to get out from house. Sometimes I'll fall into a depressive slump and say things that aren't even logical. Sometimes I'll think I annoy everyone and that everyone hate me, even you. Don't get frustrated, please. Please pick me up,help me realize how wrong I am. If that means having to lay in bed with me for 12 hours while I silently watch movies, please do it.Sometimes all I need is to know that you want to keep me company. That my presence in your life is something you desire.Show me that.
Please don't change for me.
I've spent a lot of my life accepting and learning to love these things about myself,I won't try to waste your time if you can't do the same.If I'm what you want, prove it to me. Don't change to make me want you back. I will if you 're right for me.I've been through a lot guys that fake just get what they want and leave.If I get that sense,I'm out. Be honest. I know I have a lot of bad habits you might've don't like it,try to be used to.
Please be careful with my heart.
Toxic relationships have plagued me my entire life. I want someone I can open up to.but that won't happen right away. I want someone make me happy. Show me it's worth it. Show me that I 'm all you want and if I give you my heart,handle it with care. Because it's the most valuable thing I have to offer you.
with Love
EVA
